Outside
the station people settled down again to being emotionally commonplace.
Patrick White The
Living and the Dead (1941)
…
But the vehemence and the volume of the whole episode had jangled
everything. The air still quivered a
little – full of the ripples from the raging core of raw feeling. It was almost an instinctive reaction. A collective shrug of ‘Oh well, let’s get
back to normal life as quickly as possible … after all … it’s nothing to do
with us. They were … they are …
strangers, were unknown until moments before.’
But
somehow it wasn’t that easy to dislodge the still piercing scream of her cry –
the stab of hurt that infected her whole body.
And time had seemed to slow as the train edged further up the platform.
He
kept resolutely still, shoulders rigid.
His small leather grip firmly grasped at his side. Her plaintive ‘No-o-o-o-o!’ flew like a
dagger to the centre of his back. No one would have been surprised if he had,
in fact, fallen down at that point.
There
was a shared and collective hush.
Passengers had been transformed into watchers, into witnesses.
Would
he get on the train?
Could
he withstand the combined weight of expectation bearing down on him?
Her
distress amplified and gathering force as all paused and wondered and
watched.
Funny how everyone seemed to be on her side at that
point.
But
suddenly, when the heavy door slammed behind him, there was an awkward and
immediate certainty of it being over. She sank to her knees. People pushed past as they left, busy with
their own lives.